5th Anniversary!

Well today is my 5th anniversary to my awesome husband, so we are going on a date tonight! Woo Hoo! I so need a night out...this week has sucked ass.

We've been together for 10 years, and have been married for 5 and he's still the only one I want to boink so I think we're in it for the long haul...LOL. He is definitely my male counterpart. We are *so* much alike it's scary. But it works.

I was so excited to go for a long run today since I am on a recovery week from P90X and haven't had Tony Horton kicking my ass all week. Note the cheesy grin...LOL. The run was hot as hell though, I went a little too late and the sun was beating down on me.

Distance: 5 miles
Calories burned: 654

Coping

They say there are 5 Stages of Grief for a pet loss:

Denial - This can't be happening to me/my pet!
Anger - Why me? This isn't fair!
Bargaining - If I could just have more time, find the best cure, do something to change the outcome.
Depression - The grief and sadness can be overwhelming.
Acceptance - My pet is now in a better place or at Rainbow Bridge.

I think I am in the depression phase now, but am doing better. I only cried twice yesterday! LOL It's the little things that get me going, like when I look in the back seat of my car and the blanket we put Tanner on to take him to the vets on Monday is still there, along with his leash.

Then at home, there are 2 dog dishes but only one dog. Then my dumb ass husband forgot to take the trash out yesterday so I have to look at Tanner's dog bed for another week! *sigh*

I managed to run 3 miles on Tuesday and Wednesday. I am on a recovery week from P90X, thank God! This morning I did Kempo X and it was weird doing it with falling over Tanner or not having him bug the crap out of me for attention! My workout wasn't great, but at least I am trying to get back into the groove.

Duration: 41:55

Calories Burned: 259

My Beloved Tanner.....

was laid to rest yesterday after making a turn for the worse over the weekend. As I sit here, what feels like the millionth tear is falling on the keyboard. I got a few good pictures of him last Wednesday while he was still happy and feeling good.

It was the hardest thing I've ever done in my life. But he was suffering and I couldn't let him suffer anymore. Over the weekend his legs and stomach started swelling and I knew the end was near, though others tried to remain optimistic. When I took him to the vets yesterday they said it was definitely a tumor and there was nothing that could be done at this point. He was such a loving and sweet dog and was very much loved by everyone. My Mom and husband were there with me, so he was surrounded by his favorite people and I held him and kissed him until he gave his last breath.

It was quick and peaceful and he did not fight it...he was ready to go. Goodbye my friend, I will miss you terribly.

Party Weekend!

I hope everyone is having a good holiday weekend! I decided to take a run this morning since this next week is a recovery week from P90x and then I start Phase III. Man, it's hard to run with alcohol running through your veins for the last 2 days! LOL

We decided at 11:00 on Friday to have a picnic/party that day. Totally unprepared for it, but we pulled it off! And everyone that we invited came and we all had a great time. Sometimes it's better to do things impulsively...it works out better most of the time.

Distance: 5 miles
Calories burned: 575

I am sooo sick of crying...

I swear I don't even know how I have any tears left. I am not a crier. I have cried more in the last 2 weeks than I have in ten years because of my dog! Tanner's blood test were not what they expected. The platelets look better, but the red blood cells are down. The Dr. said to increase the steroid dosage, but he didn't sound very optimistic. They are thinking it's probably a bleeding tumor that was hidden in the x-ray and well, basically it's a matter of time.

He mentioned just "keeping him comfortable" until he gets too weak. I am trying to keep this in perspective, I know he's a dog, it's just so hard. He's "my" dog. I got him when I was single 11 years ago after a nasty divorce and he has been there for me though everything. Great I'm crying again! LOL

Anyhoo, sorry for the doom and gloom that is just my mood today. I did not work out today, I have a splitting headache from the crying and well, I just wasn't in the mood! Hopefully I can come to terms with this over the weekend and be in better spirits next week.

Today is the day...

I find out about Tanner's blood results....it makes me so nervous! He is doing so much better that I'm afraid it will devastate me more if it is bad. But I am trying to hope for the best! He spent yesterday afternoon in my office since he had a vet appt. in the afternoon and I didn't want to take him the whole way home. Gotta love small companies that let you do these things. He was such a good boy the whole time and everyone loved him.

On the exercise front, I did P90X Back & Biceps this morning (Duration: 48:15, calories burned: 220) and will be taking a 3 mile run @ lunch and doing Ab Ripper after work.

I'm not your friend, I'm your Mother!

*sigh* I got into a big fight with my 19 year old yesterday. As some of you know, it's been quite the tumultuous summer for us. There are days where we can barely speak to each other without butting heads. Trust me when I say that when they are little, they are little problems and when they grow up they are big problems!

He cannot stand that I am his conscience and what I say is the truth no matter how much he doesn't want to hear it. We needed to clear the air. I felt really bad because he was crying, I ended up crying too. But it was a good thing. We broke down a barrier that's been building for months and I think we made some great progress. I hugged him and told him how proud I was of him. We are in a better place now.

On the dog front, Tanner has an appt. today to get bloodwork to see if the current treatment is working. Cross your fingers! He seems like himself, but I am afriad to get too optimistic until I hear the results.

As far as exercise, I did P90X Plyometrics this morning. I actually enjoyed it this morning, since I wasn't dog tired.

Duration: 50:11

Calories Burned: 411