I can't help it...I just do. It has everything to do with the fact that my mother-in-law comes and stays at our house for a month at Christmas.
I feel resentful that my Christmas is ruined just so that she can have a good Christmas. I think it's a lot to ask of me. She doesn't go ANYWHERE. She is always there. I am so stressed out this week because of everything going on, and having to deal with her there is pushing me over the edge.
A part of me feels guilty that I feel this way. I know that I am fortunate in so many ways, my family is healthy and my husband and I are both employed. But the selfish part of me doesn't want her there. I feel that I am missing out on being happy for Christmas while Brayden is still little. She doesn't give me any space, and I don't get to spend much time with him and this makes me sad.
It's also tough on my oldest son, who finally gets a break from college and comes home for a month and has to deal with her. He's pissed about it, and I don't blame him! She stays TOO LONG. It's TOO MUCH TO ASK. She doesn't help by way of cooking, etc. and she doesn't help financially so I feel like I am being taken advantage of.
I feel resentful that my Christmas is ruined just so that she can have a good Christmas. I think it's a lot to ask of me. She doesn't go ANYWHERE. She is always there. I am so stressed out this week because of everything going on, and having to deal with her there is pushing me over the edge.
A part of me feels guilty that I feel this way. I know that I am fortunate in so many ways, my family is healthy and my husband and I are both employed. But the selfish part of me doesn't want her there. I feel that I am missing out on being happy for Christmas while Brayden is still little. She doesn't give me any space, and I don't get to spend much time with him and this makes me sad.
It's also tough on my oldest son, who finally gets a break from college and comes home for a month and has to deal with her. He's pissed about it, and I don't blame him! She stays TOO LONG. It's TOO MUCH TO ASK. She doesn't help by way of cooking, etc. and she doesn't help financially so I feel like I am being taken advantage of.
Whew, it feels good to get this off my chest!!!!!!!!
4 comments:
Ai yi yi, Kel.
You must realllly love that hubby of yours. I don't know if I could deal.
You'll get through it. The stories you have from this time of year are priceless.
1 week should be more than enough!
I'm sorry Kel!
That totally blows. Sometimes IL's suck majorly!
Kel, that does NOT make you the Grinch. I seriously don't know how you do it. Hang in there!
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